I haven't touched this in... god knows how long.  I know that consistency is the key to my achieving the things I want to achieve but man that concept is way easier in principle than in deed.  

I have so many damn ambitions.  They give me so much pleasure in my head.  To achieve those things requires me to be consistent but that creates pain.  I guess that's why most people aren't high achievers -I am pretty sure Kurt Vonnegut nailed it when he said “I tell you, we are here on Earth to fart around, and don't let anybody tell you different.”

Part of me thinks - damn... I am the same age as Emmanuel Macron, the President of France.  But at the same time I think - some day I will be just as dead as Emmanuel Macron, who is my age and is the President of France.

I guess as long as I serve my community in some capacity and continue to improve myself and set new and higher standards for myself that's more or less all that I do. If I do those things, and make something creative to share with anyone who is interested in it, then I think I can be content with that at the end of this game of life.